Tuesday, January 19, 2010

i <3 hootie, what ya gonna do about it?

He didn't have to wake up
He'd been up all night
Layin’ there in bed listenin’
To his new born baby cry
He makes a pot of coffee
He splashes water on his face
His wife gives him a kiss and says
Its gonna be OK
It won’t be like this for long
One day soon we'll look back laughin’
At the week we brought her home
This phase is gonna fly by
So baby just hold on
‘Cause it won't be like this for long

Four years later ‘bout 4:30
She's crawling in their bed
And when he drops her off at preschool
She's clinging to his leg
The teacher peels her off of him
He says what can I do
She says now don't you worry
This’ll only last a week or two

It won’t be like this for long
One day soon you'll drop her off
And she won’t even know you're gone
This phase is gonna fly by
If you can just hold on
It won’t be like this for long

Some day soon she'll be a teenager
And at times he'll think she hates him
Then he'll walk her down the aisle
And he'll raise her veil
But right now she's up and cryin’
And the truth is that he don't mind
As he kisses her good night
And she says her prayers
He lays down there beside her
‘Til her eyes are finally closed
And just watchin’ her it breaks his heart
Cause he already knows

It won’t be like this for long
One day soon that little girl is gonna be
All grown up and gone
Yeah, this phase is gonna fly by
So, he's tryin’ to hold on

‘Cause it won’t be like this for long
It won’t be like this for long

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

yeah... about that...

i think sarah said it best.  i internalize things!  i'm workin on it, i swear! 

daycare is a hard job.  i read something once in advice for parents of children that are in daycare.  its here: http://www.haccpn.org/page.php?content=parents .  It basically says "have you hugged your caregiver today?"  it talks about a few things, but some are the most obvious.  pay on time, be appreciative, understand that they just might love your child almost as much as you do.  the entire section is great for anyone to read if they have children in daycare or if they're a daycare provider. 

anyway, back to me.  (since this is my blog)  i lost my first daycare baby.  no, she didnt pass away.  i've been watching emma since julyish when i first started this business, and i'll admit that i love her almost as much as i love addy.  i loved watching her grow and change, say new words.  i loved everything about her, everything that she was like addy and i appreciated everything that wasnt like addy.  i loved that she was still a little dependent and would bring her frustrations to me rather than throw herself on the floor (like addy).  i loved that she would still snuggle at nap time and that she still thought it was funny when i honked her nose!  anyway, her momma works at a daycare.  i always wondered why she didnt go there, but loved that her mom picked me.  as it turns out she was on a waiting list and a spot came open.  i completely understand, i really do, but i'm not going to lie and say that it didnt hurt any less.  i cried all day the day she told me.  i held emma every chance i could that day, and the next day and the next day.  her last day i didnt cry until they were out the door and well on their way.  they say the first is the hardest, but i'm not sure how it can get any easier!  i love spending my days with children and when you spend as many hours as a daycare provider does with children that arent yours, you grow attached.

anyway, this week has been okay so far, yesterday was my birthday (i'm 27. whoa!) and today was my grandpa's birthday.  its been 8 years since we've technically been able to celebrate together and i still miss him just as much as i ever have.  i'm not so sure that ever gets any easier either, to lose someone you love and look up to soo much.  i went back and forth this last week debating on whether or not i even wanted anyone to get together for my birthday (pregnancy hormones at their best!).  i'm glad i did, but i still had a sad moment for my grandpa, combined with a phone call from my grandma saying that she wasnt going to make it.  i told her i understood, i'm 27 years old, not a child anymore, but it still stung.  i wanted her here to celebrate with us.  and more than likely i'm internalizing things too much on that situation too!

i'm pretty sure this was taken at my grandparents.  that was my favorite swing and i think my grandma still has it.  i think the last time i was there she had taken it down but i think she still has it around there somewhere.  i loved getting "underdogs."

hug your grandpa, hug your grandma even if she drives you a little crazy sometimes, and hug your daycare provider.

Monday, November 23, 2009

(<3 se) can't decide if i had a breakdown or a breakthrough today.

i'm putting this here so i write about today later.

Sunday, November 15, 2009

big news! :)

friday night dave and i had a hot date.  i guess it wasnt really that hot, just kid free.  we went and had dinner and then went to target alone!  with no screaming child!  :)  it was nice.  after that we decided to head up to our friends - Frank & Jessie's.  Shortly after we got there, Jess went to the bathroom and came out with a horrified look on her face.  She asked me to come to the other room where she handed me a pregnancy test!  there was a dark line and one other line that was very faint.  "IS that a LINE?"  I thought it was and she didnt have any more tests so off to the store we went.  I decided that I'd buy a box of tests too, just so we could compare lines because I knew I wasnt pregnant. 

We got back to her house (we almost took them at walmart and decided to go home instead) and we headed to the bathroom with our digital tests and plastic cups in tow.  she peed in her cup and got her test started while i peed in my cup and then i got my test started.  we're standing there in the bathroom, both watching the hour glass tick on our tests when all of a sudden... mine gave its result.  "PREGNANT."  I looked at Jess and said "OH MY GOD!"  to which she replied "Oh my god?"  and then i said again, "OH MY GOD!"  and then she looked at my test and screamed "OH MY GOD!!!"  we both started jumping up and down, laughing and squealing and hugging!  a few seconds after we calmed for a minute, we looked at hers and it said "NOT PREGNANT."  while i was sort of bummed that we wouldnt be pregnant together, we still did another rounds of OMG, jumping, laughing, squealing and hugging!  after we calmed down, we went out to tell the guys.  they both were ecstatic with the results!  :) 

i'm very excited!  i'm calling tomorrow to get an appointment with the OB.  if i have calculated everything right, my due date should be sometime in July of 2010. 

the exhaustion i had with addison hasnt kicked in yet, but i'm sure it will come.  for now, i'm off to bed! :)

Monday, October 26, 2009


today i found this in my shoe:

Thursday, October 22, 2009

my sister

my sister stayed over night last night. she had clinicals today at the hospital, had to be there at 630AM! insane! i'm so glad she stayed here rather than drive from CR, pay for parking and have to wait around for the bus. having her here is much, much better.

i was thinking this morning about how she's grown and changed from "my little sister" to "my little but adult sister." i love that i have a good enough memory to remember when she gave herself that first haircut, the time that we caught her kissing a boy behind the couch, and the time that she stuck that carrot up her nose. now those, of course, are really memorable things, but what i like about memorable things is that i even remember how i felt then. i remember being so upset when she cut her hair, being a little scared catching her kissing that boy behind the couch and i remember thinking it was pretty funny when she stuck that carrot up her nose.

we've made a lot of memories, my sister and i. i am so so so glad that she is a positive part of my life, that i can be completely myself around her and not have to worry that she will be a fast fading friend. anyway i guess what i'm trying to spit out is that i love having my sister so much and i sometimes feel that i dont let her know how much i appreciate her. so i guess this is me saying - callie - i love you and appreciate you SO much! and i should also say thank you to my parents, who gave me a really, really great gift on june 8th, 1990.

Friday, October 16, 2009

we're alive!

goodbye summer, hello fall. seems like i forgot about the blog all summer and sure enough when it gets cold again, i remember. :) its probably not a matter of remembering, but a matter of having more time when its cold? who knows.

our summer was pretty good. not too exciting but exciting enough. in june we just had addy & mommy adventures - which i sometimes do miss. we went out to des moines this month for BFF Logan's birthday party. she had a really good time being his passenger in his power wheels. i'll never forget that big smile on her face! someday its possible that they'll go through the stage of hating their childhood memories together, and then maybe someday they'll reminice about them and OMG what if they fell in love?!

july brought us the 4th of july, which we spent at my parents house. we played dress up, she had a few truck rides. we didnt go to the parade or watch fireworks... shh, she's not old enough to beg to go yet! :) later on in july she peed in the big girl potty for the first time. i also started my own in home daycare this month. Emma joined us for our adventures!

august came and went. we went out to des moines to the state fair, we went to the amana colonies, and of course, Jeffrey's birthday! i cannot believe that he is 1 already. it seems like babies grow too fast for me! it seems like just yesterday he was a little guy... now he seems so grown up!

september. ah september! the month of various seasons! we dug out the coats this month, which in turn had addison asking for her hat. she didnt really need her stocking cap already but she insisted. which to be honest - i'm okay with this! i love the fact that she wants to wear something, and its even better when its something that will become a necessity as it gets colder out. we had labor day, a geocaching event and lots of playtime outside this month. Emma and Addison have a lot of fun together in our backyard! i'm so glad that i have it to share with her! we hid our first geocache this month which was an experience for us! you learn that not all people are as kind as you think they are, that your opinion is obviously not the same as others, and that sometimes you just have to take things with a grain of salt and move on!

and now onto october! its definitely fall outside and we've already had our "first" snow. it didnt stick of course but it was still snowing! Addy wasnt quite aware of what it was but the cats were very interested and couldnt stop looking out the windows! Addison, Emma and I have been on a few adventures so far this month. Early in the month we went to the mall on a rainy day and utilized their play equipment! both of the girls had a lot of fun. we also stopped at the childrens museum that day and got to see some fish and a turtle. Addy insisted that they were frogs! she kept yelling "ReREre!" at them - which is her little voice saying "RIBBIT!" it was pretty cute. Our weekends have been spent geocaching this month. it seems like perfect weather for it because its not too hot. we've been at a lot of parks with play equipment and i've been finding it a little hard to let go and let addy climb the big toys and go down the BIG slides! it amazes me what she is doing now versus a year ago. we've hidden 3 more caches this month, taking things not so personally is hard, but we havent had too many issues! lastly so far for this month: the pumpkin patch today! the first thing that happened after we got out of the van was Emma falling down in the mud! she was so excited that she tripped over her own feet. :( she was still excited after she fell though - she fell in MUD! fun! :)

and some cute sayings from Addison:
Mommy: Are you okay Addy!? Addison: I'M FINE!
Mommy: Say love you, pop-pop, bye bye! Addison: Lub you poppa buh bye!
Mommy: Who is that? (pointing to grandma) Addison: GR!
Mommy: Trick or Treat! Addison: Tick Teat!! (LOL)
And lastly... Addison: BUH BYE! BUH BYE!